I met with my counselor today and we talked about you all, lol. We talked about my blogging. My bed to be liked, literally. My problem with instant gratification. She put it nicely, intellectually I’m all there, emotionally I’m not. Haha. I throw emotional tantrums when I feel invisible. And I’ll either love you or…Read more »
Two weeks to make or break a habit. I cried during dinner. I want to know why I’m not over Adam yet. I want to know why I can’t seem to get past this. I wish I could tell him I’m sober, I’m working out, I’m figuring things out. All of this is so fucking…Read more »
Again in reading Living Sober I read about something all too familiar. Drinking to express anger. I didn’t know how to communicate my unhappiness with Adam. I also had self esteem issues. I wanted approval and his acceptance in ways he wasn’t capable of showing. I should have seen myself as enough but I didn’t.…Read more »
I’m feeling exhausted every day. I’m eating everything. I’m lonely. I had a health scare. My first ever abnormal pap smear. I had an additional test done today. It just need l needs to be repeated in a year. I went back on birth control to calm cramping and regulate myself. I think that’s the…Read more »
I had Cheez Itz and a Hershey’s Almond bar and it was fucking awesome.
OMG. I’m irritable and bitchy. I drank a lot for relaxation. I’m very emotional too. Of course, this could be PMS. My memory sucks. It’s gotten worse. I had to read aloud in AA the other day and I was stuttering all over the place. It was embarrassing. I’ve noticed this happening at home when…Read more »
Back on Bumble and chatting with a fellow for a few days now. I plan on attempting a sober date again Saturday as he wants to take me ot for my birthday. He uses my name a lot in conversation. Finally I told him that the only time my exboyfriend ever used my name it…Read more »