I started feeling lonely just now and missing Adam. But then I remember laying in bed next to him most nights wondering if I could live that way, no cuddling, he paid little interest in me, touched me little, other things I would have settled with. I got over it. I will find better. If not I’ll do fine on my own. I’m not settling.
I’m also getting messaged by a drunk guy. Now I know how Adam felt. But I’m not going to use this for sex. I’m not going to pretend to like him. I’m not going to text him tomorrow. I’m not going to feed him lies. I really, really need to get over someone who didn’t give two shits about me. He doesn’t deserve this much thought.