I can’t sleep. My heart is racing. I don’t know if it’s anxiety because I know I need to sleep because I work both jobs tomorrow or if I’ve screwed up my meds.
Either way, it’s annoying and I can’t calm down. I’ve got my youngest sleeping with me and both dogs. Still not calm.
I’m out of matches on Match.com. I’m tired of Bumble.
I know I’m screwed.
An old friend texted me tonight wanting to know how I was doing. I told him not entirely happy, working a lot and he said I deserve to be happy. I hear this a lot. I know it begins inside but I’m kind of working for everyone else right now.
Y’all get sick of hearing my pity party shit?
I’m getting tired of it. I want something good to happen!
I’ll keep trying.