After royally fucking up this weekend I stewed over my past and forgot about all of it come Saturday night. I’m still paying the price and may me be for sometime to come. (Drinking was only a small factor this weekend.) And I didn’t have the kids, mind you. I laid low yesterday, avoiding people.…Read more »
I’m easier on Jackson. I realize that. He struggles more. I may not snap at him as quickly as I do Jake for annoying me. By annoying I mean hear “come here” a million times or “watch me” a hundred more. I’m annoyed, frankly mad, when Jake does something I’ve told him not to do.…Read more »
This morning I was blindsided by the boys asking questions about their half-sister and dad. They want to see their half-sister again. My youngest, again, wanted to know why there aren’t many photos of him with his father. I tried to explain that we weren’t together long after he was born. I didn’t want to…Read more »
Watching Jackson interact with people at the pool. They’re pretending to watch him and act interested in what he wants to show them but they’re looking annoyed. My God how hard it is to watch.
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Weight: 149 lbs. Treadmill: 30 minutes Sober: 10 days Mindset: happy I’m down a whole pound. It’s about damn time. I say that but just had a little bit of ice cream. We’re celebrating. Jackson got his hearing aid today. He’s elated. The look on his face when he had the hearing aid inserted and…Read more »
And I see the grandson dressing like a girl and I realize Jackson has brought me 2 girly books to read to him. Here, he’s on top of me showing off his missing teeth. Lord, I hope I have all the right advice to give my kids if they ever come to me for it.